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It's just all giving and no receiving
Everywhere I turn

Just makes my stomach churns
So much things to get done

Yet I am not having fun
Don't know where I stand
On this tired land
And I don't know what to do
With absolutely no clue
Currently sitting in the library
This place is very untidy
The dust on the books
The scratches on tiles 
While time just seems to fly
Yet it is still
One of my favourite places to be

Apart from the sea

Looking through the grilled windows

While enjoying the peaceful silence

Distracts me from all the violence

Of this world

The wicked hearts of men

And the troubled hearts of my friends

All of which is driving me insane

While I am sitting through this pain

But everything is far apart
Even my narrow heart
And how exactly am I supposed to start
I sit at the desk
Wondering how I am going to rest
And when I finally open this book
I take one look
Then I close it back
By then I realize the fact that
Studying is not as it seems
It presents itself like a dream

But is like a forensic case from hell

Now arriving in my room
There will be no more gloom
This is my favourite place of the two

Apart from the sea

No more shelves of books

I am just observing my looks

A place where I can be myself

Behind of the shelves

Where I can sleep and eat

While my stuff lay at my feet

My comfort place

A place where I am safe,

physically

But soon, all of this comes crashing down

And everything is replaced with a frown

Then I am back to square one

With my head at the gun

An endless cycle of hurt, pain and regret

Which just makes me fret

With all three in one

And my head at the gun

This feels like a next breakdown

But through all of that

I managed to still climb at the top

Still I didn't win my race

Just because of that one phase

I wouldn't say it slowed me down

Even though it made me fall to the ground

I am thankful for it

For it made me meet you

And I am grateful to have learnt the truth.

kayanna☺.

So how I came up with this poem?

I started writing it one day in the library at school, sometime in mid January in one of my subject books. I definitely need to get myself a book so I can write. So I eventually transferred it to my computer and wrote more. This poem means a lot to me as it focuses on my three (3) favourite places currently.

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